So, we’ve been home over a week now, and things are… weird. Sean is stressed – he’s been out most days dealing with issues with Chris and the kids, and talking to a lawyer about their separation and all that fun stuff. Then he’s had business dealings to tie up before going to London and Amsterdam for the filming. Problem is, though, that even though we’re sharing the same space right now, I hardly see him. Pretty ironic, if you ask me. Freakin’ studio apartment, and I see him long enough now for maybe a meal together, and for one or both of us to pass out watching TV in the evening or something.
I know this is only temporary, and it’ll eventually be over, but I miss him. I can’t stand the feeling of isolation that I get sometimes when I know he’s busy dealing with more important things – I hate interrupting him when he’s got stuff going on, so I tend to just stay quiet, and wait. I mean, what am I going to do, say “Yo, Sean… pay attention to me!”, when he’s got little girls wanting the same thing? Nope.
Speaking of the girls, too, we took them out for the day this past weekend. Had a great time, went to see Nemo, then took them to a playground to tire them out. Trouble is, we tired ourselves out as well. I guess I’m just really feeling the need to be close and cuddle… and other things too… but Sean’s just not available right now, so I’m kind of down. Isn’t anything I can do about it but wait, and I don’t mind doing it, but I still get really lonely, even though in my mind I know it can’t be helped.
I wonder what everyone else is up to right now. Might have to make some calls this week to keep myself occupied.